if Dino needed another reason to feel bad about himself I think the behaviour of his brother would have given him no solace

having said that I feel that all the protestations rue expressed to me about suicidal ideations of his little brother were false and unaufrichtig

but here I have to make a point

he may be a totally selfish cunt but I still like this flawed rue
he is like the scab that one should not pick
irresistable and toxic


SOME PEOPLE KNOW AND SOME SHOULDNT

I was thinking about Dino today and I remembered something
before he died Dino told me that the business with rue and the stepfather was not true
he said it never happened
he was upset that rue kept telling the same story to hurt people

rue makes no comment about this
and I will not comment here about this belief
but there is a doubt in my mind

rue and I will never agree about love
he always looks for the dead mouse under the bed
I am not and never will be the father
I am not and never will be the latest spiv
rue loves being half dead to the world
I love the sun and the rain and the moon and the stars
there is a strength in me that he hides from

I was born happy and he was born to complain

An artist is not one person
A sorcerer is not one person
Love is not one person
rue is not one person
I am not the dream

it is good I will always support rue in the view that he has honour and a reputation to protect and it is good that the difference between me and rue is that I am a happy fascist and he is an unhappy one and it is good that rue insists on practicing infantilism because he will always want a father instead of a friend

when rue says that he loves you you will know that he is unehrlich

what I find curious about this place is the complete lack of interest by the administrator and the members It reminds me of the positHIVe page a distillation of massive disappointment where the more nervous mitgliedern fretted and mewled when they were challenged to make a contribution
another of rues brilliant failures

hehehhehe

hu hu

poor rue

he tries to drag his childhood into a faulty adulthood

he tries to gild his laziness, his supreme indulgence, so that it becomes a pseudo-rue

I know where my demons live

rue will walk past his own, and expect to be paid for his presence

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is it so hard to get things right ?

rue den Momme